I just wanted to write a short note to you about the order of my blog writing. I know I could place these writings in order of their subject matter, and perhaps I shall organise that in the future, but for now though, I prefer chronological event writing. It's taken all of my 50 odd years to come to some sort of harmony within myself of my across modality skills, passions, interests and loves, and here there is no exception. Blog writing is just another aspect of myself where this pulling together the breadth of who I am and all that I encompass, is an extensively creative journey. There doesn't appear to be any formulas for me. I am an open, honest, heart on my sleeve, intelligent, see right through crap, super intuitive woman, and though I do traverse many areas of thought, creativity, and study, I'm truly honestly, very happy to finally find a place to be all that I am, without apology, explanation or even the need to defend.
Sometimes my varied interests have been at odds with each other. Neither holding a common meeting point and yet, all conjunctive to each part. These aspects of me have enjoyed interweaving threads of connection via travel, food, and of course, my own unique multilayered creative expression.
~ The Artist wanting the silence of the painting studio with no interruptions, at conflict with the musician jumping up on the stage, performing to the world. Well, I say the world, but more like a crowd of two thousand audience members at Dallas Brookes Hall, in East Melbourne for Deepak Chokra in 1994.
~ The mother at odds with personal growth and the creative life. Where, the fight to maintain singing, acting, pottery, painting, healing self, was overlaid with tiredness, and a sense of banging head against a wall to even have the space to think, let alone practice my craft, and felt like a fast road to dullness. I became overwhelmed, and tried to live in a world according to how everyone else wanted me to, (non creative types), and the lights dimmed for me for a pretty good while.
~ Even this past four years running a transformational healing business, has begun to be at odds with a new paint studio set up and the enjoyment of a more introverted artistic life. And a severe dislike for multimedia advertising and self promotion.
All too often, the envy towards those that do just one thing and stick to it, (and earn money because of their longevity in one area), digs at me, and it clashes with, and is at odds with, my abhorrence of a life so linear, so prescribed, and so boxed in.
So dear reader, here they are, my writings on varied matters in chronological order. May you be able to navigate the jumps from one subject to another and I wish you the best with the enjoyment of the creative journey associated with that.